I don’t know about you all, but I’m tired.
Not “I stayed up too many late nights in a row watching the Gilmore Girls Revival” kind of tired (although I totally did and if you want we can dish about it in the comments. I have so many thoughts). The kind of tired that comes at the end of a long year of hard.
Someone said to me yesterday, “Can you believe it’s already December? This year has flown by.” I stared at them for a long minute, and didn’t answer. Not because I didn’t want to answer, but because I didn’t know how to put my answer into words that they would understand.
How do you explain to someone you barely know that this has been the longest year of your life? That you were pretty sure we hit December sometime back in late June, and at the same time you have been dreading the arrival of this month. December, with it’s festive decorations and holiday cheer also marks the end. And while no one wants to kick 2016 to the curb more than I do, it also signifies the last year certain realities will ever have occurred and certain people will ever have lived, and I’m not ready to cut that tie. Not yet.
I wasn’t prepared for how hard the holidays were going to be this year. Every time I begin to feel like I’m beginning to move forward, something else drags me backwards. My therapist and I have talked about the possibility that I’m not able to fully grieve because I am still holding on. I haven’t been able to fully let go of the people I have lost this year, and the weight of my sadness feels like it’s crushing me sometimes.
So here we are, at the start of December. The stores have been pushing Christmas since the week of Halloween, and my calendar tells me Christmas Eve is three weeks from tomorrow. While I want to retreat under the covers and not emerge until January, I know that’s not healthy either.
So here’s what I’m planning. A month of self-care. Not in the way my therapist would prefer (because as much as I love her, I really don’t have time right now to spend an hour or more every day doing something just for me), but of being mindful of what I need to get through these next three months.
Slowing down. Less hustle. Snuggles with my puppy. Holiday movies on the weekend with my husband. Maybe a nap. Maybe two naps. Less blogging.
My commitment to you is to blog once a week, maybe more if I can find the time, but at least once. I’m going to share holiday traditions, favorite recipes, and what ever else strikes my mood between now and Christmas. Fun, light hearted, and festive.
At the end of the month, after Christmas is over, we’ll get into full goal setting and planning mode for 2017. Because you know how much I love to plan, and a fresh year is like the holy grail of planning. We’ll talk about doing an end of the year review, finding a focus, action steps, and a whole lot more.
In the meantime, I have done several posts that may help you as you move through the holidays.
In this post I wrote about seasonal decorating and shared how I store my decorations. Now is the time to buy red and green buckets if that interests you, and during the holidays you can find seasonal storage on sale. Pro tip: holiday storage does NOT typically go on sale after Christmas.
In this post I wrote about creating a beverage station. For Christmas, I replace the cardstock on the bottom of the tray with red, switch the mug out with a more seasonal choice, and add in a tumbler with snowflake drink stirrers I got years ago. Who says drink stirrers can’t be used for cocoa? Think out of the box. In past years I have also added a mason jar of mini candy canes.
In this post I wrote about ornament collections for children. If you have young children especially, think about getting an ornament every year that reflects something they are interested in that year, or a place that you visited. Buy an ornament storage container (I think the ones in my post came from Target) and write each child’s name on the top. See the post for more details.
Okay. I think that’s the best of what I have. Feel free to search “seasonal” in the search tab and have a look at what else might show up.
In my next post I’ll be sharing my favorite recipe for hot chocolate. Feel free to hit the “subscribe” button if you want to make sure to receive the post in your email box, or check back next week. And thank you for reading. I’m thankful every day for those of you who take the time to read my words.
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